how to defy the odds?

On-board ANA Flight NH 869
En route to Manila
12:50PM Japan Time

How do I defy the odds when I am constantly trying to hide behind my fears? They say destiny belongs to the underdogs, but I think it belongs to the brave. But being brave is easier said than done. When I feel my emotions are about to eat me up, my instinct is to always run away.

I am tired of running. I want to confront myself and be responsible for my actions. Be true to how I feel. I despise work because of all the mistakes I have made and I fear making mistakes. So I guess I have to figure out all the things that I love and hate about work and find a way to prioritize addressing all of it. It is time I take action and embrace all that comes with it - the good, the bad, the beautiful, and the ugly.

Things will probably implode before it gets better, but I have gone through worse things. Frankly, I am terrified of it all but I am most terrified of not truly living because I let my fears paralyze me. For far too long, I have let myself believe that things are fine, that I am fine, when everything is not.

I am brave. I am worth it. I am true. With this, my heart is ready to defy the odds.