CENTRAL PARK
9 May 2022
Central Park, New York City
Spring Day and everyone is out and about.
Mothers with their kids in strollers, some of them may even be nannies.
My cousin decides to play BTS’s Dynamite on her phone’s speakers. It matched the sunny day and the mood we were in.
We decided to look for a spot. We found a huge boulder and sat on it. She ate icecream while I decide to write this log and sip my ginger ale.
A few feet from us, a lady basks in the spring sun in her underwear. My 3rd world conservative self was a bit surprised but I decided to take it in stride.
A man sits alone listening to music while singing along with it.
There is a busker under the bridge playing the violin too.
Couples making out in public with no cares. Love should be declared publicly like that. Love should be shameless.
A kid decides to roll down the hill like Jack and Jill, her mother trailing behind her, encouraging her to keep playing.
I write all of this to remember the moment. Like freezing it in a time capsule but on my Muji notebook and a borrowed pen. I write to forget my impending trip home.
If there is something I discovered during this trip, is that this place brings a lot of promise. I want to move here. Maybe because I am trying to avoid responsibilities back home, or maybe because I have always wanted a fresh start.
I have found a certain amount of peace sitting in the park. There were a lot of people doing all sorts of things but I felt a sense of relief that I can exist alone and get comforted watching people around me living their lives. I have always felt the opposite back home. Like people are waiting for me to screw up. I was always worried about my next move, it is hard to even decide what I want for myself.
This trip has made me discover that I have a lot of things to sort out for myself. Finances, my career, my children, my cares, and my quest for collecting happy moments to help me get by.
I am truly happy and scared at this moment, writing this. I know I have to make bold changes in my life soon. I hope I will be brave enough to face it.
I end this by telling myself that everything will be alright.
