REMEMBER HAPPY

Breakfast was our favorite thing to do 
It always was a thing between me and you 
Scrambled eggs and those green smoothies you hate 
Prepared with love so you drank it anyway.

Phone calls was hardly our thing 
But every now and then you would call on a whim 
You dropped a line to ask me how I am 
I dismiss it with a shrug or a few words if I can.

When I hear my heart breaking 
Or I hear a thump when my knees give out 
I remember happy
I remember when you were still around 

If I try to silence my sobs 
Or clench my teeth in despair
I remember you happy 
I remember when you were still here. 

You liked to solve problems
You said you were meant to save the world
Did things nobody would dare do
Did things nobody has ever heard. 

When you know I wasn’t my best 
You would whip out your guitar 
And we would start singing happy songs 
You’d make me feel like a star 

When my eyes start tearing up 
From the thought of losing you
I remember happy 
I remember I deserve to be happy too 
You have always told me
That life is painful and unfair 
But you remind me to be happy 
And that in my heart, you’re forever there. 

For my first love until forever, My Papa.