HOW DO I HOLD YOUr HAND FOREVER
How do I hold your hand forever? 
How do I love you better? 
How do I stop looking into your eyes with guilt,
For this fortress of sadness I have built.
And though these eyes seem to always cry,
It doesn’t mean I am sad by your side,
It is in you I find a home to rest,
It is you who brought me happiness.
How do I keep you in my arms forever? 
My weary heart wants to rest in yours.
How do I let you know I love you. 
Or let you know I don’t blame you,
Our journey has been long and arduous,
And without you I would not have pulled through.
Will you let me take care of you now? 
Even if I have no idea how,
To love you truly,
To love you more than you have loved me. 
How does a broken and tired queen
Serve and love a mighty King? 
Who has been loving,
Who has been true.
How do I let you know this heart belongs to you? 
I should have tried to show you more, 
You’re the one my heart beats for. 
And when I lose you in this lifetime, 
I hope I’ll find you in the next, 
And not until you are all mine, 
I will never stop and rest. 
How do we hold hands forever? 
Or find each other in the next? 
How do I love you for worse or better? 
How can I say I have done my best. 
When you have days when it is hard to love me, 
I hope that you trust me enough
And just love me, 
Because It’s your hand I want to hold forever,
Even if it will be hard to hold me too. 
I love you. 
May 20, 2022
Bukit Bintang, Malaysia 7:40PM